Month of July

It was super busy July since I was commited to finish the July Camp NaNoMoWri. If you are wondering what that is, it is a novel-writing project and I did explain about it in my previous posts. I didn’t think it would be stressful but it was. I thought it would be very easy since I researched about it and read some books on writing. I took a lot of notes by the end of June and I was ready for this project.

I just didn’t realize how limited my vocabulary was. I was struggling to finish my first chapter. Though I had my story outline, words didn’t flow through easily. The stories turned depending on my mood that day so the ending was different as well. For the first few days, I pledged my word count to 20,000 but I soon realized that it was not going to happen. So I started small, about 10,000 words  and I think I made the right choice. It was impossible to write on weekends because we were so busy and with a preschooler screaming around the house, it was impossible to concentrate and write.

By Day 12, I was having panic attracts because words just failed me. I felt like I was repeating the words again and again. Most of the time, I felt like I was writing an essay but I guess this is my learning process. I still don’t know if I will ever try again because I realized that I am not much of a story-teller or have good imagination. But somehow I forced myself to finish it the novel.

I have finished my first draft in 26 days and then I crashed. I felt like I never wanted to see that story again because I feel bad about it. It needs lots of drafting  and I wonder if I will ever be confident enough to give my novel to someone so that they can give feedback. I am super scared and I know that it is bad  . I am going to give myself a break for 2 weeks or so and then do the second drafting with fresh mind and eyes. Maybe I could make it readable .

I am trying to get back to my routine in the blog but I am being extremely lazy these days. I am back on the health kick again after about 2 months or so. I have made some changes to our lifestyle. I have stopped buying the packaged or frozen stuffs and started cooking a lot. Eating healthy and keeping eye on the calories is taking a huge toll on me. I am forever hungry and angry  . But I need to suck it up if I need to make some changes in my life. And I do fitness at least twice a week and stop eating junky snacks and believe me that is difficult.

The minute you decide that you are going to stop eating sugar, your body starts craving for it. If you go out, all the desserts miraculously seems to be in front of you and then you talk yourself out of it. Then you attend a get together and what do they have? Cake, of course  and then you tell yourself that you will have just a small piece of cake. But when the first spoon goes into your mouth, your taste buds explodes and you crave more. And that is how you end up pigging yourself with sugar after being good for a week .

I seriously need to be very good about losing weight and control my sugar craving. And September and October is going to be busy because we have family coming over. I really need to be consistent about posting in my blog and I hoping that I will. How was your July, readers? Anything interesting?


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