Last 2 weeks..

For the past 2 weeks, I got sick, got better, then got worse and then got better. It’s been a roller coaster of sickness in our house. During this time, I didn’t want to sit and write the blog. I just wasn’t in the mood. During days like this, all I want to do is sit and marinate in the couch 🙂 .

It’s been nearly 4 months since my asthma was worse and I forgot how it felt and when I started coughing at night and couldn’t sleep for 3 nights, I got emotional and angry. During these time, I get obsessed about watching a TV show and this time that show was “How I met your Mother”. It’s been 6 days and I am on the Season 8 and I can’t seem to stop it.

I don’t want to go out of the house and I just hate feeling like this. I sometimes force myself to go out until I had to go out. I had so many plans for the blog but for some reason, I have lost that drive to write the articles.

I tried my hands on many things, Zentangles, coloring, drawing, etc. but I lose interest very quickly. I did start changing my diet and I was really good till I got sick. I seriously wanted to eat only unhealthy foods. I tried to control it but with the sickness, I get emotional. So there went my plan to lose weight. I still do some exercise at least 2 times a week but that’s just a blip in calories I eat 😦 .

I still drink the green smoothies and the almond milk smoothies which I love and I had put on the weight I lost during those 3 weeks of good diet. Sometimes I just crave Grilled Cheese Sandwich. I have always known that it will be really difficult for me to control my eating habits because ultimately I cave. I have known for a long time that I am an emotional eater and that is the worst for people who want to lose weight.

So there readers, something about me you now know. If you haven’t see all those food pictures in my Instagram, then you won’t understand 🙂 . I am still not yet over my sickness because it usually get bad the day after my volunteer work in the pet shelter. Hopefully once I am over the sickness, I should hopefully stick to my healthy eating.


Month of July

It was super busy July since I was commited to finish the July Camp NaNoMoWri. If you are wondering what that is, it is a novel-writing project and I did explain about it in my previous posts. I didn’t think it would be stressful but it was. I thought it would be very easy since I researched about it and read some books on writing. I took a lot of notes by the end of June and I was ready for this project.

I just didn’t realize how limited my vocabulary was. I was struggling to finish my first chapter. Though I had my story outline, words didn’t flow through easily. The stories turned depending on my mood that day so the ending was different as well. For the first few days, I pledged my word count to 20,000 but I soon realized that it was not going to happen. So I started small, about 10,000 words  and I think I made the right choice. It was impossible to write on weekends because we were so busy and with a preschooler screaming around the house, it was impossible to concentrate and write.

By Day 12, I was having panic attracts because words just failed me. I felt like I was repeating the words again and again. Most of the time, I felt like I was writing an essay but I guess this is my learning process. I still don’t know if I will ever try again because I realized that I am not much of a story-teller or have good imagination. But somehow I forced myself to finish it the novel.

I have finished my first draft in 26 days and then I crashed. I felt like I never wanted to see that story again because I feel bad about it. It needs lots of drafting  and I wonder if I will ever be confident enough to give my novel to someone so that they can give feedback. I am super scared and I know that it is bad  . I am going to give myself a break for 2 weeks or so and then do the second drafting with fresh mind and eyes. Maybe I could make it readable .

I am trying to get back to my routine in the blog but I am being extremely lazy these days. I am back on the health kick again after about 2 months or so. I have made some changes to our lifestyle. I have stopped buying the packaged or frozen stuffs and started cooking a lot. Eating healthy and keeping eye on the calories is taking a huge toll on me. I am forever hungry and angry  . But I need to suck it up if I need to make some changes in my life. And I do fitness at least twice a week and stop eating junky snacks and believe me that is difficult.

The minute you decide that you are going to stop eating sugar, your body starts craving for it. If you go out, all the desserts miraculously seems to be in front of you and then you talk yourself out of it. Then you attend a get together and what do they have? Cake, of course  and then you tell yourself that you will have just a small piece of cake. But when the first spoon goes into your mouth, your taste buds explodes and you crave more. And that is how you end up pigging yourself with sugar after being good for a week .

I seriously need to be very good about losing weight and control my sugar craving. And September and October is going to be busy because we have family coming over. I really need to be consistent about posting in my blog and I hoping that I will. How was your July, readers? Anything interesting?

Changes in Summer 2015

Summer is getting hotter and hotter in Seattle. It’s 75 degrees and I am feeling so hot sitting at home. I thinking I am having a writer’s block since I just don’t feel like writing anything, words just fail me. But I do want to continue with my blog. I do like blogging and wish I have more things to talk about. Life is certainly getting interesting this summer.

I got a new fitness tracker. After using my Polar Loop for almost 18 months, I think I needed a change. I always had my eye on the fitbit and finally I got my hands on the Fitbit Charge HR with the heart rate monitor in the watch. It certainly looks cute enough  and I am in love with the fitbit app. I love that they give you badges if you finish a goal. So it’s like a game, you just want to keep getting more badges. I love the plum color and the display screen. I will do a detailed review soon. It’s been a week and I already love it.

The next change is my obsession which is the planner and planner accessories. I have the feeling that I end up getting lot of planner stuffs but I don’t have the creative mind to know how to use them. I think I have spent a lot of money on the accessories (LOT) and I want to do something about it. So I decided to do some thing creative. I have started to do some water coloring. It’s been ages since I tried my hands on sketching and colors and It is definitely not like riding a bicycle. I had to learn lot of things again. But I am enjoying doing this.

My final and most important change is that I have joined the NaNoWriMo which is National Novel Writing Month which happens in November and they are having a July NaNoWriMo challenge and I have decided to join it. After some encouragement from my friends, I have decided to give it a try. I chose this July contest because I can choose how many words I can write. I am totally terrified. I have researched for months about writing and decided to give it a try. I don’t know how I am going to do but this is a good platform for all the newbie writers. I just want to know if I can do it. Who knows, I could be the worst writer ever but I still want to try it to see if I am any good.

This July contest I have chosen a Novella, Fiction and about 20,000 words and that is my aim. But let’s see how it goes. I think I am going to be stressed out by the end of July. I will definitely tell you all about my experience about the this.

 What are your plans, readers? Any thing interesting?